of course, the reason why i find people so hard is because the only way to make it easier is to interact with people. lol. the answer was so simple. and the clock is ticking.

look im on the verge of a breakthrough because im realizing people are fractals for real this time listening to taylor swift, ok so basically i can love a girl for her best and see her for her best and let light completely envelop the mold of her person or i can see her for her very worst and she can be nothing but a speck of dust on the floor.......... so basically, this can extend eeven to any personality trait and we're really all lying to ourselves constantly and trying to aim for one firm concept of something is really fucking impossible so what i need to do is actually not give a shit and the only person i can trust upon realizing this is myself, not because other people dont have good intentions but because they will never be able to perceive reality in the way i do, and vice versa. so i have to trust myself to live. holt shit i feel so close to my humanity